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Were you asking if Wakkster was Ethan, or were you asking if I was aggressive?

I don't think I'm a very aggressive person when it comes to women. I'm a very "if only she wants to" person, not that I'm submissive or anything like that...well, I'm not sure, but I'm a very "think of her before yourself" guy.

If you asked if I was aggressive with anything else, then I am for a lot of things. I.E. sports and games. Very aggressive. Competitive. Almost bossy, I would think, and unshamedly so if I am. I like to give orders, I think, or tell people what to do, or WORSE, to TEACH people when they don't need teaching. "Ok, did you check that? You know you need to cause--" Ren: "OMG, STFU ETHAN!" "I'm just saying--" foto: "Yeah, we know how to do that, man." "Right, but--" Ren: "~SHMACK!!!~" "x_x"

Yeah, that was prolly what they were thinkinng, though they didn't say so in so many words. They usually just nod and agree, or answer my questions, etc.

I do think that may be I am subconsciously aggressive, or that I have certain tendencies towards it. Like, I could bring up a subject repeatedly, or that I'd freely give good information benefitting what I would want someone to do, or say, or think. I.E. getting Trin to play EVE without outright saying "Play the game, you bastard!" Like, I'd bring up good points of how fun the game is over and over again, and they'd never be the same points, or I'd drop names of people playing and how much they're enjoying the game.

With women, though, I think as long as she genuinely liked me I could go do whatever they wanted me to do. Go shopping with her, eat somewhere with her, give up breathing if she asked me to...although we might have issues when it came to gaming, I think.

Does that answer the question? I don't know, I don't think so. I've yet to ever *ask* someone out, per se. Like, taking the iniative and doing so. But I guess that's part of just not having a *regular* avenue for women. Nor having the funds and access to go to *other* less regular avenues, i.e. clubs, bars, etc, etc, etc.

On another note, I think this Liz thing is starting to drive me nuts. I'm starting to have thoughts of being some guy who gets really powerful or famous and then imagining what her reaction would be. I.E. I'm a hero who dies saving the planet, what would she think? "Oh, I knew him"? Or "Meh"? Or "Wow, I can't believe he did that, now I have to spend money to go to his funeral and meet his parents"?

Or I'd have thoughts that I'm a hero and I save her and she doesn't recognize me at first, and then we find out her current boyfriend is actually this evil megalomaniac who planned to turn the human population of the world into mice...or rats. And that we'd go down memory lane, but nothing ever happens cause I...well, die saving the planet again.

Other thoughts involve more realism, like, "If only she told me WHY she cut off contact with me I can MOVE ON", or "There has to be a reason for this; messed up MSN, messed up AIM, SOMETHING other than she doesn't want to see me anymore."

Update: She hasn't responded to my comment, and I don't see an update on her journal, but she has commented on other ppls' journals recently. I think it might get too freaky/stalker-ish if I go around posting comments on her friends' LJ.