Why am I so rubbish at going after women?
((this is a general rant. No obligation to read, or provide adivce, though if you want to, feel free to do so.))
First one:
The one time I actually was gonna do something romantic for valentines, was when I bought a large bunch of flowers, a big box of chocolates and waited at a meeting point stated by the person I bought them for.
I stood there for three hours, not knowing her house was the one opposite the road from me, and that she was watching me for those three hours. Ended up giving the flowers to my Gran and eating the chocolates. This was in P7 I think. She and her mates laughed at me for weeks afterwards.
The second one (and current one): I really like her, she likes me (by admission and by everyone whose been out where both of us are present pointing out her body language says so). Problem: She not only has a b/f, she's engaged. So why do I like her so much, despite knowing this (considering she never mentioned it when we snogged @ the work crimbo party, and the constant flirting with me, and the 2nd kiss I was too drunk to remember (damn it, the only thing I can't remember about that night!)). The other night we were out with mutual friends, and she ended up snogging another guy before I had the guts to do it (despite everyone else being at the verge of shouting at me for not doing it, as we both obviously wanted to). It hurt me. but at the same time, the fact she's engaged surely means she loves the fiancee, or at best senario, did at some point. I don't wanna break that up, and hurt her, but I still want her to myself, despite knowing she's unavailable.
Urghh. Why do I have to have to be so bad at picking women to go after?
(PS, I am a little drunk as typing this, and I will fix any spelling errors when I next am here. Was only trying to get a little tipsy, as I find I'm better with coming up with plot lines for my story when I'm tipsy or drunk. Overshot it a bit...)
*****-----_____
"What is freedom, but choosing how to follow a pre-defined destiny in life?"
((this is a general rant. No obligation to read, or provide adivce, though if you want to, feel free to do so.))
First one:
The one time I actually was gonna do something romantic for valentines, was when I bought a large bunch of flowers, a big box of chocolates and waited at a meeting point stated by the person I bought them for.
I stood there for three hours, not knowing her house was the one opposite the road from me, and that she was watching me for those three hours. Ended up giving the flowers to my Gran and eating the chocolates. This was in P7 I think. She and her mates laughed at me for weeks afterwards.
The second one (and current one): I really like her, she likes me (by admission and by everyone whose been out where both of us are present pointing out her body language says so). Problem: She not only has a b/f, she's engaged. So why do I like her so much, despite knowing this (considering she never mentioned it when we snogged @ the work crimbo party, and the constant flirting with me, and the 2nd kiss I was too drunk to remember (damn it, the only thing I can't remember about that night!)). The other night we were out with mutual friends, and she ended up snogging another guy before I had the guts to do it (despite everyone else being at the verge of shouting at me for not doing it, as we both obviously wanted to). It hurt me. but at the same time, the fact she's engaged surely means she loves the fiancee, or at best senario, did at some point. I don't wanna break that up, and hurt her, but I still want her to myself, despite knowing she's unavailable.
Urghh. Why do I have to have to be so bad at picking women to go after?
(PS, I am a little drunk as typing this, and I will fix any spelling errors when I next am here. Was only trying to get a little tipsy, as I find I'm better with coming up with plot lines for my story when I'm tipsy or drunk. Overshot it a bit...)
*****-----_____
"What is freedom, but choosing how to follow a pre-defined destiny in life?"
